Been a while.

I like how no one reads this. im hoping. gives me a chance to vent my frustrations.

been two days. since i found out. yeah, im alive. but there is so much angst inside me. cant believe anything you say. even if you say you love me.

so many un-answered questions.

so little time.

so little confidence.

so little happiness.

I know and i will take all the time i need. to get over this, to be able to face you and face her. to be able to spend time alone with you. to spend time with your friends.

i hope you will wait. if you dont, i really dont know what to say.

current favourite : TRUE COLOURS BY PHIL COLLINS.

you with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmfqLOLCNi8

yenjayy :)

2011!

I never expected I would get down to blogging all over again.

Okay first things first:

1) Never had a 1st April quite as bad as this one.

2) Never realized how supportive my friends are

3) Never realized how supportive my family is

4) Never realized I was this strong.

I think i was really mad/angry at first, maybe a little paranoid at the people i expected to judge me. But i was relieved that no one did. That aside, i am basically working on making the rest of my university life as fruitful as possible.

Musical career in progress. Joined plato's cave as a Artist Practioneer. Ok, i really wonder how that will turn out. I will be required to go through guitar training, song writing and drama. In a whole, i am expected to come out after the 1 year as a self-taught singer/song writer with the necessary performance skills?. Scares me. do your dreams scare you? Like, you think you are meant to do it, but at the same time you are not? Rhetorical question. No ones gonna answer anyway.

Aight. adios. :)

hello

Finally, an update.

been having a rough time since i got back from india. just that everything is happening all at once and none of it is good so its pretty overwhelming. starting to question a lot of things in life. my relationships, my happiness, my self confidence, my identity (esp my identity). university is going to start soon, moving to hall so thats good. put everything else aside and do some serious reflection. i've actually realized i haven't gone for my daily walks in a long time.

i wish i could internalize all my feelings.

and i realised, the only thing a girl needs after a break up is to feel attractive. and your on your way.

hello!

i almost forgot how much i miss blogging.